i was supposed to have an 11-week vacation in between Spring and Fall semesters.  but i decided to teach for the Summer.  not working for 11 weeks, and not being home will make me crazy.  and of course, i needed the money. 

so my vacation went from 11 weeks to 3 weeks.  then an offer to teach a short course for 2 weeks came.  down to 1 week.

then just when i was dreaming of my vacation, a workshop popped up (thanks to this really hated Staff of the college).  and i had to prepare for it.  i had to cut out two more days from the week long vacation i was looking forward to. 

thank God it's over!

now, i'm really closing the curtain.  i'll won't work tomorrow (wednesday) til friday. 

hayyy... how i wish i can leave this island and hibernate somewhere.  i'm dreaming of staying in a hotel, eating at buffets, watching a concert, picnic at the park, pampering myself in a spa, and sleeping til i can't sleep anymore.  i need to reward myself, somehow.

but then, i can't.  there's no way i can leave this place this week.

Friendship is unnecessary, like philosopy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival. - C.S. Lewis

It is easy enough to be friendly to one's friends.  But to befriend the one who regards himself as your enemy is the quintessence of true religion.  The other is mere business.  - Mahatma Gandhi

The greatest happiness of life is the convictiction that we are loved, loved for ourselves, or rather inspite of ourselves.  - Victor Hugo

A friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.  - Walter Winchell

Friends and good manners will carry you where money won't go.  - Margaret Walker

Never lose sight of the fact that the most important yardstick of your success will be how you treat other people - your family, friends, and coworkers, and even strangers you meet along the way.  - Barbara Bush

A blessed thing it is for any man or woman to have a friend, one human soul whom he can trust utterly, who knows the best and worst of us, and who loves us inspite of all our faults.  - Charles Kingsley

Remember to be yourself and surround yourself with people and things that define and reflect who you are.  - Thomas Kinkade

Tell me what company thou keepest and I'll tell thee what thou art.  - Miguel de Cervantes

A friends is a person with whom I may be sincere.  Before him I may think aloud.  - Ralph Walde Emerson

Reprove a friend in secret but praise him before others.  - Leonardo da Vinci

The best mirror is an old friend.  - George Herbert

Real friendship is shown in times of trouble;  prosperity is full of friends.  - Euripides

Friendship is unnecessary, like philosopy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival. - C.S. Lewis

It is easy enough to be friendly to one's friends.  But to befriend the one who regards himself as your enemy is the quintessence of true religion.  The other is mere business.  - Mahatma Gandhi

The greatest happiness of life is the convictiction that we are loved, loved for ourselves, or rather inspite of ourselves.  - Victor Hugo

A friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.  - Walter Winchell

Friends and good manners will carry you where money won't go.  - Margaret Walker

Never lose sight of the fact that the most important yardstick of your success will be how you treat other people - your family, friends, and coworkers, and even strangers you meet along the way.  - Barbara Bush

A blessed thing it is for any man or woman to have a friend, one human soul whom he can trust utterly, who knows the best and worst of us, and who loves us inspite of all our faults.  - Charles Kingsley

Remember to be yourself and surround yourself with people and things that define and reflect who you are.  - Thomas Kinkade

Tell me what company thou keepest and I'll tell thee what thou art.  - Miguel de Cervantes

A friends is a person with whom I may be sincere.  Before him I may think aloud.  - Ralph Walde Emerson

A man of many compasions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.  - King Solomon

Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work:  If one falls down, his friend can help him up.  But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up!  - King Solomon

Reprove a friend in secret but praise him before others.  - Leonardo da Vinci

The best mirror is an old friend.  - George Herbert

Real friendship is shown in times of trouble;  prosperity is full of friends.  - Euripides

The antidote for 50 enemies is one friend.  - Aristotle

we all go through life from one threshold to another.  and when we feel we're already in our threshold, we know some things have to change.  but it's not that easy.  there's a price to pay.  adjustment.  discomfort.  risk.  regret.  words almost synonymous to change.  getting out of our comfort zone is not easy.

so when we're on the bordeline, when we're about to take take the plunge, a part of us wants to take a step yet another part is hesitant, unsure.  we wonder what lies ahead.  and is it worth giving up what we already have.

in going off to college, we leave our home and family behind to get good education.  in moving to a new house, we have to say goodbye to the comfort of old friends and neighborhood in exchange of being closer to work.  in getting married, we have to shed off some degree of independence for having somebody to share our lives with.  in acccepting a promotion, we leave behind a position we've mastered for a higher position, higher pay, or a better career path.  in changing careers, we risk failure in hope of finding fulfillment.

as we go from threshold to threshold, something pulls us forward while something pulls as back. 

now which is the stronger force?

what am I doing?  i'm supposed to be preparing for a workshop i'll be giving (i don't even know why i'm the one giving it in the first place) on Tuesday.  but what am i doing?  playing Text Twist over YM.  typing an entry for my blog.  chatting with erjo, kelvs and jontue over YM.  talk about somebody who needs to work!  i'm such a crammer.  can somebody pressure me to work?  i haven't started anything!  i don't even know if i really have something to deliver in that training to think that they will give me a whole day.  hayyy... i'm doomed.

check out tsuping's space.  (he's on the friend's list, as he is a friend ;p) it took him months to post an entry.  now he's talking.  (oops, blogging, i mean)

10 Years Ago, I...
1. was an innocent high school student having the time of my life =)
2. had bangs
3. had a lot of insecurities

5 Years Ago, I...
1. was in the university learning how to survive
2. 've never had a boyfriend since birth (NBSB)
3. was experiencing a turning point in my life

3 Years Ago, I...
1. was on my way to earning a college degree
2. learning more about myself more than ever
3. eating a lot but not gaining weight

A Year Ago, I...
1.  quit my first full time job for a job overseas
2.  was experiencing quarter life crisis
3.  was very much in love =)

This Year, I...
1. have been really blessed
2. experienced the worst times
3. changed a lot
 
Yesterday, I...
1. finished reading Angels & Demons
2. watched All My Life (Aga Muhlach-Kristine Hermosa) and wanted to go on a cruise
3. cried out of frustration

Today, I...
1. woke up at 10 in the morning
2. had a really heavy lunch
3. am wishing for a miracle
 
Tomorrow I will...
1. iron a laundry basketful of clothes
2. start reading another book
3. write letters